all in one

bismillahirahmanirahim..
assalamualaikum w.b.t..

after i viewed my blog and only few postings in a year so i decided to aim at least three postings in a year. hehe. this is like a self-journal kan. whenever you nak throwback boleh baca sini. lols

alhamdulillah thumma alhamdulillah

mixed news happy and sad. let me go to sad story first since i saw post about dad's operation in February 2012. well its almost 6 years and plus alhamdulillah dad'd vision is really good but starting end of last year his eyes getting blur. when he did the mri it showed his cyst is getting bigger and pressing his saraf mata. doc give him priority to do the operation. it gonna be a major operation since doc will open his skull and take out his brain, clear up the cyst and put it all back together.
allahu.. only listened to it give me goosebumps! apa ntah lagi kepada ayahku sendiri. may Allah grant his syifaa'. make it short, families majority not agreed thinking of the side effect after the operation. we are going for homeopathy pills and bekam currently. but, doc mentioned if his condition getting worst like he ada sakit kepala, vomit kena cepat-cepat bawa pergi hospital. Allah! please pray it wont happen :(

my aim this year was actully focusing on dad and futher my study. but Allah has a better plan for me. allahuakbar..

my application to further study was rejected. that feeling when you are so confident that you are gonna make it but you dont. only He knows how heartbreaking it was.

but Allah still love me. alhamdulillah. He replace that sadness with something else

Syukur. Pray Allah swt will continue to grant us His barakah, rahmah and make it ease for everything and everyone :)

Farewell

bismillahirohmanirohim

after 15 months i posted here, now i am back again. 

kita semua hidup di muka bumi yang indah hanyalah sebagai seorang traveler, dan penghujung kita yang kekal abadi adalah di sana: di alam barzakh. syurga atau neraka, we determine our fate, do good you end up at the best place, do bad you will have to face the consequences later.

actually i want to share my recently farewell with my housemate aka collegue aka partner in crime aka my massager aka my best chef here and many more! of course shes the best listener ever (counselor gak kan)

 our last program together, inshaAllah will meeting her again :)

her farwell. beside me is her mom, mdm chieng, she and fawwaz and mdm ting

indeed, Allah swt knows i am strong enough to face all of this.

tapi apa lah sangat dugaan kita di zaman sekarang berbanding dengan dugaan zaman para sahabat.

Allahu, semoga kita dapat rahmat Nya dan pengakhiran yang khusnul khatimah.

Aaminn

btw my parents are going to perform hajj this year without me, of course im happy yet sad because i cannot go with them. may Allah swt protect them always! 

my everything

assalamualaikum..

My last post was in April and now we are in another year of April. Alhamdulillah for still give us chance to live. So how was things going after a year? Let me go by point:
      - Job : Still a counselor (alhamdulillah)
      - Address : Still in Bintulu (mashaAllah until when i wanna be here.. only He knows)
      - Status : Still doesn't change. Im single at the age of 27years and 3 months 16 days old. (HAHA why so accurate)
      - Physical : Alhamdulillah my weight is increasing (its shows that how happy i am, cudnt be grateful enough), skin got darker and more wrinkles (SOBBSS)
I cant think of anything else. So thats all for the update.

#totd

"At the end of the day, in the day of resurrection, Allah will ask you for what you have done.

DO WE HAVE THE ANSWER NOW? ARE YOU READY FOR IT? ARE YOU ALREADY PREPARE FOR IT?


Allah Im scared, Honestly i dont know what i have contribute to the ummah, or even for my family and friends.

May Allah place us at the highest place in jannah. Aaminnn ;)

alhamdulillah

assalamualaikum,. today even i started it a bit chaotic but it end perfectly. im just happy even it because of sebesar zarah punya benda. we have to be grateful for whatever the reason is kan. and plus appreciate those thing. they are not gonna repeat and be the same next time.

hey I'm in Sarawak now!

assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera..


hey actually I'm in the middle of preparing something for majlis restu ilmu at my school. and suddenly i want to share this teks for YDP PIBG since i got this task. and im thinking if i share this i hope its going to be helpful just in case anyone pun terkena same task like me. but its not done yet. so later kay!


good night and ma'salamah!

Dikir Zikir FIkir

Assalamualaikum and good morning..

Last night I went to a talk.. Aisha told me last minute and I was like okay I'm going inshaAllah. Kadang-kadang perkara yang kita rancang rapi, tapi bila Allah tak izinkan tak kan jadi juga. And things out of plan but Allah dah cakap kufayakun then it will happen macam-macam mana pun.

So let me share some input that i got last night. Well its kind of reminder to self juga bila later I baca entri ni balik kan...

(copy paste from my note)

Dikir zikir fikir
Ustazah Bahyah - 5th May 2014 - 10.15pm

1. Taat kepada ibu bapa
-balasan anak solehah :
i. Dosa terhapus
ii. Bahagia dunia akhirat
iii. Husnul khatimah (penyudah yg baik)
iv. Masuk syurga

(MashaAllah.. Sape tak nak tu semua?? Senang je plus bila buat dengan hati yang ikhlas kan.. Tapi bila fikir balik menyesal la apa yang buat dulu-dulu time zaman jahiliah. Huhu. May Allah accept our repentance.)

2. Berbakti kepada ibu bapa
i. Mengandung melahir menyusu

(refer to mak kita yang buat tu semua.. dont you feel you have to pay those? and even you give them thousand of money pon its still not paid off. Think back apa yang kita dah buat untuk mereka.. And if nak compare pun macam tak layak je kan. Sobss)

3. Menghargai pengorbanan ibu bapa terutama sekali ibu
i. Important rather than berjihad

(Rasulullah s.a.w pun cakap menjaga ibu lagi penting dari berjihad. As we know pahala berjihad ni besar and kalau mati dalam berjihad ni syurga tempatnya inshaAllah. Tapi jaga ibu lagi penting.. So pahala dia agak-agak apa? )

4. Dapatkan keredhaan ibu bapa
Keredhaan Allah terletak dlm keredhaan ibu and ayah
Kemurkaan Allah terletak dlm ibu ayah jugak

(Kalau ibu bapa tak redha apa yang dia dah beri.. Bayangkan Allah nak lepaskan masuk syurga ke tak? Allah pun tak nak bagi keredhaan kat kita.. MashaAllah. Semoga kita sentiasa berada dalam keredhaan Allah s.w.t dan ibu bapa kita. Amin.)

Any correction or addition please let me know. You can do so..
Alhamdulillah.
Allahuakbar..

Sesunguhnya yang baik tu datang dari Allah dan yg kekurangan itu datang dari saya sendiri..

Wallahualam.

Salam...

Buntu..

Assalamualaikum and good morning..

Before start doing my job, i need to express first. 

Alhamdulillah, Praise be to Allah for giving me chance to live another day. SubhanAllah.. Are we deserve to live without doing nothing? Sure when someone give you something you need to do something in return. But Allah did not ask much from us, He just want us to do good deeds,be a better muslim, listen to His order and avoid bad deeds. Is not it so easy? InshaAllah May He bless us..

Today i got my confirmation letter after 3 months probationary period was end. There are the pros and cons actually by receiving this letter. The cons is, once i confirm i need to give 2 months notice before i resign.. The main concern is, once i know the result of this posting thing, they didn't give us much time as my friend said lah. 2 weeks notice only. Duhh how im going to face those..

Allahu, May Allah help and ease our journey. Ameen. 

#sotd #rotd

"There are no other great lost other than we lost our Prophet Rasulullah s.a.w"

MashaAllah.. That statement shows that we cannot be too sad when lost someone or something. Everything is belong to Allah s.w.t. Who are we to blame or feels sad when we lost them? Surely when Allah take something from us, but He will return with something which better than before. He knows best right..

"Oh Allah, make my heart close with you. Please clean and purify my heart Ya Rabb and remove all the black dot.. Make my heart strong and istiqamah in worshiping You.. Forgive all my wrongdoings.. and my family as well. Ya Malik.. Ya Rahman.. please ease our plan and give blessing to us"

Ameen Ya Rabbal Alamin

Allahu.. Allah

Assalamualaikum..

Before post entry check previous entry dulu then i laugh at myself. HAHA. Actually was thinking of creating a new blog tapi this is my journey of life. Ups and Down. Worst and Good. Always changing and once i am in the right path, then i am going to sustain and keep improving inshaAllah.

Thing make me gelak is about the guy that i met in twitter. Yeah because sekarang pun macam baru lepas berpisah dengan kawan baru yang i met. LOL.

Hopefully will fade away lah and can stand with those updates in facebook from both of them. Pray the best for them. Ameen :). They are good and intelligent people.. SubhanAllah. and they meant for each other.. Alhamdulillah.

#wordoftheday

"Don't assume. Don't think bad of others. Don't. ruin your mind by thinking those.. Just please don't'

Kita ada Dia.. He knows what best.. 

Actually those kata-kata is meant for myself. Haha. Here is to express things in our mind kan.. 

slowly lost her ;(

salam and hi..

in one month, we will lost her for real, we have no right to 'bebel' to her, scold her, expect her to be with us all the time, guess my mom sure miss her so much. she's the loveable in family afterall. i didn't expect that i'll lost her too soon and i am not prepare for that.

why she can't just stay the same? where she got these guts to make us feel like this? i love her but at the same time i hate her action toward us.

why she can just understand the reason we do certain things. its for her own sake ya know. it so frustrating. urgh!!!

moral of the story; please don't change yourself, if it is for betterment then okay, but if it make you worst please don't.

*semoga aku tak tergolong dalam kalangan-kalangan orang yang macam tu. amin ;')

A day after operation

assalamualaikum and hi..

Dad's condition is stable at first, but few hours later it getting worst as the bleeding happen to be non-stop. we're really worried because doc has said before its okay as long as no bleeding after operation. then till night, the on-call doc, Dr Shafiq come and treat ayah. then dad's condition getting better alhamdulillah. 

a worried me 

meal for lunch

haku yang makan XD

loyal sister ;p

i love them ;*. please pray the best for our family as it help so much without we realize about it ;)

wassalam

Operation Day

assalamualaikum dan selamat pagi..

Hari ini sangat mendebarkan. ayah sedang di operate sekarang ini di Hospital Sultanah Aminah, Jb. Ayah masuk pukul 7.30am and operation was started around 9am.

Actually, i thought this operation is kind of simple as before this doc wanna use laser or something thru ayah's nose in order to remove the cyst. oh plus, i thought it is a cyst, but turn out it became tumor already. double nervous and afraid.  back to how my dad will be operated, according to my sister ayah's tulang hidung will be removed then they will refer to pakar otak to korek2 the tumor. the tumor's size is about 3cm. Then, they will glue all of them back if tak cukup kulit, amek kulit dari kaki. Thank God ayah's tumor ni jenis yg baik, dia tak merebak tempat lain. Alhamdulillah.

According to doc, there are many possibilities that might happen. for example, the tumor can only be removed maybe 80%, or even 20 or 30 percent only. Oh Allah, how i wish it can be removed all of it. And the darah that ayah's will get ftom org2 yg menderma tu, though it has been screened, but we never know if the darah tak sihat. ya know what i mean aite. mohon dijauhkan lah Ya Allah. 

Another truth is though dad's tumor has been removed, dad's vision can be treated. The purpose of the operation is to avoid the tumor become worst. Poor ayah.. 

"Ya Allah, Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim, Ya Malik, Ya Aziz, Ya Jabbar, lindunglah ayahku, Mohd Sah b Hj Ibrahim. Berkatilah operation ini Ya Allah, tunjukkan lah keajaiban-Mu Ya Allah, kurniakanlah penglihatan yang baik terhadap ayah ku Ya Allah. Pinjamkan lah kekuatan-Mu kpd kami sekeluarga Ya Allah. Kepada Mu kami memohon dan kepada Mu kami meminta pertolongan. Sembuhkan lah penyakit ayahku, amin amin amin ya rabbalalamin"

me, uda, along

mom look so worry

dad is getting ready

i love all of the above. please protect them Ya Rabb :')

i know they love me, i know they care

assalamualikum dan selamat pagi ;)
for this entry, i wanna talk about my precious people. aisha and kak alya, i wont be matured if i dont have you guys around. though, kita selalu merapu dan melepak, tapi korang akan come out dgn quote from someone or pepatah hidup lebih kurang macam tu la which makes me to ponder. each word brings different meaning. aku ni dah jenis pemalas nak fikir2 or do something yg boleh menambahkan ilmu aku, but with them i can gain knowledge and with them i realized how important for us to know some basic or current information.

eh btw, guy i met him in twitter, we break off already. is not that break off taw, kitaorang pun cuma kawan rapat je before ni takde declare apa2 pun. make it short, his dad has found someone suitable with him then he let go of our relationship. that's the end of our story. just wait and meet with other guy. haha

ahh sleepy already. got to sleep. later i will upload my precious's pictures and me as well. wuhuuu!

Early Zulkaedah

salam..

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin..

Daya a.k.a sis. En Mohd Shah a.k.a ayah, Pn Samiah a.k.a mak, Joe a.k.a abang and me

eventho raya dah habis tapi aku still nak wish juga.. so ketinggalan. Alhamdulillah had a great raya and this year there is no problem during bbq's night and it went well.  

before raya, i managed to submit all the report for practicum and the result keluar already. heard that most of us got A-. duhhh. punya la banyak benda kena buat dapat A- je.. only some of us got A solid. they deserved it.. redho2. LOL. 

Thank to Him again for letting me meet someone.. tapi actually memang dah kenal before ni it just happen we meet in twitter so berhubung balik.. hihi. but, we're still in the stage of knowing each other. 

“You can’t really begin to appreciate life until it has knocked you down a few times. You can’t really begin to appreciate love until your heart has been broken. You can’t really begin to appreciate happiness until you’ve known sadness. You have to struggle up the mountainside to appreciate the breathtaking view at the mountaintop.”#ihatequotes

PLEASE a.k.a CHAEBHALLL

salam and hi..

Praise be to Him for still let me be in this world.. 

Aku ada habit before tidur aku pasang aim esok aku nak buat apa and i'm so like bersemangat at night but then, when the time comes, aku macam just go with the flow. takde pun la nak bersungguh-sungguh gila to achieve the aims. Derr. what for doh kau pasang aim tu semua  kalau kau tak try to capai benda tu?? #sigh

anyone have idea? help me please. sobs ;'(. this thing make me so upset. huhu. ke aku tak payah pun nak pasang target untuk esok eh? LOL

With exchange program students from Korea and Chicago

student sekolah aku ni excited gila bila ada student dari luar negara datang.. haha supportive betul mereka ni. 

okay. itu sahaja for tonight. gonna update my logbook and filing.. bla bla bla.. boring. huahhh.

Sometimes, when I say "I'm okay " I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight and say, "I know you're not ". #ihatesquotes


oh when the time will come??? ;p

wasalam and bye

Activities in SMK Taman Melawati

salam and hi..

hari-hari berlalu aku tempuhi dengan suka dan duka..

suka apabila ada program or anything..

duka apabila client tiada, program juga tiada..

Hari Senamarobik

Hari Kerjaya

Hari Koperasi Sekolah

countdown lagi berapa hari aku berada kat sekolah ni..

nak start rasa sedih tinggalkan sekolah boleh tak???

;p

wassalam and bye

life of pre-worker

Assalamualikum and salam sejahtera :)


Hey ya.. it has been long time no update. bila la aku boleh memupuk minat untuk update blog ni. okay. tutup cerita. 


Sekarang aku tengah praktikum and dah nak masuk minggu yg ke 4 dah kot. 3 weeks to go dan sungguh lah aku tak sabar nak habis benda ni.. aku rasa waktu berpraktikal ni sangat meletihkan other than kena fulfill the requirement, the assignments juga tak kurang hebatnya. #sabarjela kan.. 

insyaAllah dapat menyambut ramadhan kali ini with Allah wills and i will spend my fasting day at school. uwaa! so not ready for that. huhu tak baik betul cakap camtu. aku rasa aku akan spend dalam half month puasa kat sekolah kot. btw, aku praktikal kat sekolah menengah as a counselor. so sesiapa nak share anything come and meet me yaww! haha layak ke aku??? 

Only He knows best. Perkara apa sekalipun korang kerjakan, ikhlaskan lah dirimu as Allah akan permudahkan kerja kita, InsyaAllah. peringatan untuk diri sendiri juga :')

ihatequotes

"Never lie to people, because the people you are able to lie to, are the people who trust you"


: its better to tell the truth rather than gives a lie. One lie make abundant of trust disappear or its hard to trust you anymore. 
# I'm still learning and praying to accept the new family member. 


wasalam. have a great day and full with blessing by Allah :)

aku kembali lagi

salam sejahtera.

ismi najihah and aku kembali lagi with lots of story which i wish i cud express it here. last aku update bulan 11 last year n sekarang dah bulan 3/2012. sucha long time not updating my blog. aku still single and live my life as student, member of Gemilang club, a daughter of En. Mohd Shah and Pn. Samiah, adik beradik kepada adik beradik ku(whatta) and here ada satu penambahan, sekarang aku jadi tutor untuk budak darjah 4 and 6. aku kena assist dorang in subject BM and MATH. seriously aku rasa cam multitasker gila aku buat banyak benda dalam satu masa. hope everything goes well. 

banyak benda dah jadi and aku rasa tatau nak react to that cemana. aku buntu, aku try to betul kan keadaan tapi it doesn't work yet. hope someday it'll be fix naturally. and i miss my old family. huaa. ni yang sedih bila cakap sal family.. okay stop la camni. huehue

"If someone doesn't brighten your life, don't take off your

 sunglasses, just find sunshine somewhere else."

meaning: don't you give up in doing something or finding 

someone cause Allah always prepare something or someone 

better for you. 

#renunganbersama

thats all for tonight. salam. may Allah bless us all :)

MORAL FOR TODAY :)

assalamualaikum and hi! 

aku ni teringin lah nak update selalu blog ni tapi ada banyak sangat pulak halangan nye. now, ada masa and condition laptop pun mengizinkan jadi boleh lah aku nak update blog. okay here we go. today's topic is about moral value yg aku dapat sepanjang berborak and berjalan arini. 

korang setuju tak if i said " a picture today maybe don't have any value, but later it might be really a valuable picture". aku cakap camtu sbb aku dah terasa dah betapa valuable nya picture tu sekarang dgn comment nye lagi sbb dulu aku tgk  gambar tu gambar biasa. xde rasa pape pun. and bila di kenang balik cam syahdu je. meaning, we should appreciate whatever happen to us today since ia mungkin xberlaku lagi pasni..

second moral values coming later lah. tiba2 takde idea.phuahaha

ok daa!

see ya again..

assalamualaikum ppl! lama dah tak update sampai bersawang blog ku neh. eicey blog boleh bersawang ke. gila exaggerate oh. FYI, aku dah break up dengan mamat tuh. entry b4 ni yg ada pic dia tu. nak delete cam syg plak. yela kenangan keyh. hoho.  

okay forget about him. lets move on :) 

sekarang like dah nak mid sem dah so lots of things to do.. dgn gemilang club nye lg, study, ppl around me. fuhh! mencabar babe. tp gua gagah kan diri jgk demi ibu bapa tercinta. 

oh i like so many things to express but maybe boleh buat entry lain la kot kan..

so thats all.. last word : 

'jangan lah sakitkan hati org di sekeliling anda kerana ia boleh menyakitkan hati anda juga...'